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Hello, My Name is Robert Begnaud, I am the father of large family and husband of one wife, a 47 year old Contractor in N. San Diego County. Was raised up as a child in the Assembly of God church, became a Jesus only Pentecostal as a teen, got kicked out after befriending some Baptist kids I went to school with, I changed my doctrine and then joined a local Baptist church. After about a year of this, I became unsatisfied by the dryness and went a little back towards my Pentecostal roots and started attending the local Calvary Chapel. Became involved in the music and began to lead in worship. After a few years the group had a split, I became involved in a Four Square Church where I became the worship leader and was so for five years. I was now in my late twenties and all of the above church experiences from my teens up, had ended in utter abusive disaster!
At this time in my life, I became desperate for the truth, I just knew that something with this thing I had called “church” just wasn’t right. I had been raised up in a “Christian family”, we memorized scriptures as children, got rewards for memorizing whole chapters of the Bible, I had no lack of theological studies or training, had plenty of so called spiritual experiences, yet I was completely baffled by the many contradictions I was facing. From my late twenties to my early thirties, let’s just write this off and suffice it to say that I crashed and burned, yet the Lord did not forsake me utterly in all this. I am not going to get into the details of this, it wasn’t like a typical crash and burn, no, I didn’t become a drug addict, I didn’t go to jail, no that’s not what I mean. Well I will tell you that unless the Lord had rescued me, I would have most certainly perished!
During this, my crash and burn, I was in the Word constantly and receiving the truth of the Word of God and being established in the most holy faith. This is the time that the Lord opened my eyes to the mystery Babylon, what I would refer to as modern day Christendom. And despite my weakness, wounds and the great sorrow that I received upon knowing his truth, yes it seemed to me as comparable to the holy writ found in Rev. 10:9-10 it seemed sweet to my mouth and yet has left great bitterness in my belly, even to this day! Yet God did not forsake me, he has brought me through that which cannot be explained any other way than to say, “God has helped me when I could do nothing for myself!”
Let me appeal to your conscience brother, sister, saints; I am well aware that I am one odd duck! I don’t know how to change and I am not sure that I should. However, in my hope of salvation, I am not ashamed because the love of God is shed in my heart. I do know that my audios are full of rebuke and they are probably not targeted to baby Christians, but mature brothers and sisters, it is not because I think I am superior, it is not done out of pride. What I am trying to do is approach the subject of living Truth, not as a theologian out of seminary, but as a little child who receives the precious hidden manna from the Father. So far I have received little feed back from those who listen. And to my knowledge, no one has linked to me. While, what little feed back I have received has been positive, I am not sure really who hates me, or if anyone loves me. I know this site has not been up for long and I should be patient and trust the Lord in all things. Would you please let me know if these audios are helpful or you are welcome to let me know if you think I am hurting and please tell me why! Since I have been forced on my own, in my front living room with the wife and children and who ever else dares to show up, I know the effect of my ministry on their lives, the evidence is abundant, I am completely comfortable with that. However, I don’t know you, so could be kind enough to say something about the important subjects I am talking about?
You know a wise man, if you rebuke him will love you! Proverbs 9:8
God Bless! Robert Begnaud
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